I took 18 credits worth of classes, and 3 audit credits worth of classes. Classes are listed as follows:
DEPT ### (# credits, grade): Description
Quarter GPA: 3.71, Cumulative GPA: 3.89
I have no one else to blame but myself.
If we include the audit class (which, to be fair, I had to skimp on a little in order to make ends meet), I took a total of 21. Credits. This. Quarter. And....I did decently well on all of the above (except for the audit). But...at what cost?
Well, the classes themselves for one. Yes, I did just say that I did decently well in the classes, but I admittedly do hold myself to pretty high standards in my classes, especially when I know that I can succeed in all of them. And I ended up with 3.5, 3.6, 3.7. I suppose to most people, that's great, and in fact, quite easily makes the Deans List for the quarter. Maybe it's the inner perfectionist in myself speaking, but I know that I could have done better in those classes. Particularly the Computer Science courses, as I believe that I am capable of performing exceptionally well in them. It's not like I bombed any one particular assignment, either. Points off here, points off there, and it adds up.
The Honors course I took this quarter was great as well, if not on the heavy side. To be fair, although we had a ton of reading every week, understanding how LGBTQ groups - and minority groups in general - fight for recognition and representation in all levels of government was good to understand, even if I personally don't agree with the principles of the LGBTQ movement. Having to write from an "opposing perspective" really helps humanize opponents as people, and really put to light the distinction between disagreement on issues and deprivation of what would be considered basic human rights according to the UN's Declaration of Human Rights. It also made clear that the 'buzz word' of feminism (or at least, a feminist worldview) is more focused on understanding inequalities and power structures in modern society, which I thought was a very good clarification to take away from the class. I did take this course expecting to be somewhat uncomfortable, and I was, but no one got anywhere without a challenge to their own personal worldview.
Maybe I should be happy with how I did in my school, managing to work as hard as I did with so many credits. But even if so, I still made substantial sacrifices. Case in point: the audit class. The three-credit class was an introduction to Abstract Algebra, specifically category theory and group theory. And I'll be honest, I stayed with it for the first three or four weeks, but I had to prioritize the classes I'm actually receiving credit for, so inevitably I fell behind in the material. I... know what a normal group is... but I see a question asking to apply normal groups, and I'm lost. Commutative diagrams? Same story, and the basic concepts of injectivity and surjectivity I still need to think about before I know which one is which. This course has a second quarter in spring, which I would love to attend since next quarter should be a lot better... but given how this quarter went, I might not gain anything from it because I might just be confused the whole time.
Another pretty serious sacrifice I made was to my social life. In autumn quarter, one of my friends from last year's MATH 13X series hosted game nights every Friday, which I attended with some degree of regulation. But this quarter, I essentially had to sacrifice it entirely. Perpetual deadlines to meet - CS project due on Friday every week as well as a ton of reading every week for HONORS 231 meant that Friday game nights were untenable. One friend jokingly commented that if they didn't know better, they would have thought that I died.
As I think about what exactly I wanted to accomplish while at school, while academics are certanily a big part of my goal, I did set out to improve as a person, which includes being a more friendly, more social person who exists outside of their dorm room. And in that regard, this quarter was definitely my roughest quarter of them all so far. Lesson learned, don't push so many credits onto myself. Even if I can manage it, it's just that. Only managing.